So far, I’m liking the new year. I find it interesting that with a change of calendar, a new year seems fresh and full of hope, and that whatever happened in the previous year is suddenly gone.
In my last post, I wrote that 2014 was a good year and it was for the most part, but I was also sad for the better part of the year. I didn’t realize that I was sad until I had a long and teary talk with a friend of mine last week when he asked me if everything was OK. I opened up to him, which brought out doubts, insecurities and whatever else I had bottled up inside for the last few months.
After opening up my heart, I felt much better. Last year, I tried dealing with my sadness in different ways or even by not really talking about what was hurting me. It felt good to honest with my friend, and suddenly I realized that those words or thoughts I had stuck upon myself, were not me and they didn’t define me. It felt good to shake them off and leave them in the past. So, with this, I welcome 2015 and the lessons I’ve learned from the year before.
My holiday break was great and despite having some good intentions to finish working on my website, launch my Etsy page, and make art, I didn’t do any of that–and I loved it. I had to work but the rest of my free time I watched movies on Netflix and went to the movies, read my book and met up with a few friends. It was lovely. I did check out the closing day of Claire Twomey’s Piece By Piece exhibit at the Gardiner Museum. In all of the years I’ve lived in Toronto, I’ve never visited the Gardiner Museum, which is a beautiful space where gorgeous ceramics are displayed.
As for this blog, I still don’t know what to do with it. Is it a personal blog where I share everything about my life or keep it strictly about art and my projects? I don’t know. It seems to be a bit of both. For the time being, I’m going to post as regularly as possible just so this blog can continue to be maintained and that I can practice writing.
So, in this post, I’m going to write about my goals for 2015. I hate the words “New Year Resolutions” because they’re loaded words. I feel there is so much emphasis on them and I’ve gone through the disappointment of not having them happen. But I have goals and goals take work. I have a list of things I want to do more or less for the year. I know that some will happen or others won’t this year, but maybe next year or the year after that. I’m also writing my goals down because I want them to happen. If they exist outside of my head, then they have a better chance of coming to life if they’re written down and out in the world.
Here’s my list for 2015: